Hilang

rintih kumerintih kesakitan yang telah kujalani / ambisimu kini membunuhku
dan kau bungkam mulutku dengan indahmu / menari diatas luka mimpi
wajah yang hadir hanyalah imaji semu terlihat / terbuai hanyutku dalam deras mimpi dan khayalan

terbesit untuk melupakan omong kosong harapan / diamku tak dapat tertahan
sudahlah...sudahlah aku muak / sadarlah...sadarlah semua akan terbuang
terbesit untuk melupakan omong kosong harapan / diamku tak dapat tertahan

ku kan menghilang / dari bayang kelam
tanpa sisa semua tiada / kini kata-kata tiada artinya
hanya luka yang bicara

sadarkan mataku dari semua anganmu
dan semua akan sirna yang tersisa hanyalah luka

ku kan menghilang / dari bayang kelam
tanpa sisa semua tiada / kini kata-kata tiada artinya
hanya luka yang bicara

Serenade

That thought never cross my mind / That you could leave
And vanish into nothingness / Left us alone
I shall never forget the moment that I heard the news of you / Nothing gonna be the same again
I never thought that all the problems you kept in had a glimpse of truth

These words and these melodies I write for you
Inscribed in our hearts we scream for you

You never be alone again / Cos this serenade I sing for you
Will be your guardian angel / Watching over your endless sleep

Every now and then your smile / Appears before me
Only then I realize it's all just a dream / Your ghost still linger upon us
As it watches over / My every step

These words and these melodies I write for you
Inscribed in our hearts we scream for you

You never be alone again / Cos this serenade I sing for you
Will be your guardian angel / Watching over your endless sleep

I'm Fading away

Nobody laughing in the end / There're things I cannot comprehend
The night is full of stars / And you're not with me
Cut down another thread / If one isn't enough
If one isn't enough / Then do it twice

Yes I know what I've done / And what I'm gonna do
I know what I'm gonna do / Second time would be better
Better for both of us (Better for both of us)

It's amazing you forget / All the lines you used to said
All the memories left behind / Fading away by time
Every battle has been fought / And everything I think was thought
I am lost / And can't ask question

I am lost / Can't ask question
I feel like going back to time

Yes I know what I've done / And what I'm gonna do (I know what I'm gonna do)
Second time would be better / Better for both of us (Better for both of us)

It's amazing you forget / All the lines you used to said
All the memories left behind / Fading away by time

Where were you then? / Who else was there?
Tell me right now / Are you happy?
How can you be? / Are you happy now?

It's amazing you forget / All the lines you used to said
All the memories left behind / Fading away by time
You're the reason / For my sanity

Where were you then? / Who else was there?
Tell me right now / Are you happy?
How can you be? / Are you happy now?

My Sweet Lullaby

Haven't you heard about a fairy tale? / At a winter's night end of the year in five
The given one land to the world and now / Haven't you received a message from her?
That she's writing down on the wall with words of luck and stars / And you know, it's all just lies

To show you I missed / Those words out from your lips
You're a curse you're my gift / I wipe all your tears
At the side of the hill / When you felt all your fears

Please tell me all / Your alibis you left
This suffering comes twice / Sweet lullaby your angel lies you sing
I dream of you tonight / The world collide I still survive you have
My heart and ripped it out / We're breaking up you watch me fall
It's so fragile inside / Oh glory brightest son of life
Stop dropping me down / Don't take away don't kill the light
And now I've gone blind / And now if I owe you one I soon will refund
I'd rather stand with broken arms than feel my heart burn

I wipe all your tears / At the side of the hills
When you felt all your fears / Leave me alone
It's all just lies / Why can't you just leave?

Potret Kehampaan

Dan semua telah hilang… potret kehampaan / Apa yang kutakutkan kini menjadi nyata
Tersisa hanyalah / Sesal tak habisnya
Kebodohan yang memaksa / Membuatku nista

Namun percuma meyakinkanmu / Kau memutarkan fakta
Pengorbanan tak lagi berarti / Hancurkan

Telah kucoba dengar, semua hanya alasan / Terpuruk dalam pedihku yakin
Kau kembali dengannya / Kulenyapkan semua, puisi omong kosongmu
Menorehkan tinta penuh duka / Kini ku tak berdaya

Hanya menunggu harapan yang sirna / Menanti asa yang tak kunjung tiba
Membuat cerita berakhir nestapa / Muakku adalah goresan hatiku

Deritaku tak ada habisnya / Kan kubawa hingga semanis pembalasanku... nanti
Tiada bicara / Aroganmu meronta
Terdiamku, setengah mati

Namun percuma meyakinkanmu / Kau memutarkan fakta
Pengorbanan tak lagi berarti / Hancurkan

Telah kucoba dengar, semua hanya alasan / Terpuruk dalam pedihku yakin
Kau kembali dengannya / Kulenyapkan semua, puisi omong kosongmu
Menorehkan tinta penuh duka / Kini ku tak berdaya

Deritaku tak ada habisnya / Kan kubawa hingga semanis pembalasanku... nanti
Tiada bicara / Aroganmu meronta
Terdiamku, setengah mati

Telah kucoba dengar, semua hanya alasan / Terpuruk dalam pedihku yakin
Kau kembali dengannya / Kulenyapkan semua, puisi omong kosongmu
Menorehkan tinta penuh duka / Kini ku tak berdaya

Between Logic And Sense

Here I lay, bare naked on the floor (shivering down my spine)
As I lean back on the cold damp wall (shivers of cold or shivers of fear)

Fear of being alone / Fear of being without you ('til the end of days)
Yet you're not here, to catch my fall / As my head hit the concrete floor
My heart cries out / Cries a name that has condemned
My destiny to hell / Please god lift this curse tonight

Reminiscence of a broken heart / Yet it all felt so surreal
For which deadly sins have I deserved to fall / Your every lie went for the kill

My heart and tears are in discord / The first battle with the pain
The fears battle to yearn to avenge the pain / Now all I hear
Are eerie chants / Slowly I shut my tired eyes
Pray it's not my epilogue

Fear of being alone / Fear of being without you ('til the end of days)
Yet you're not here, to catch my fall / As my head hit the concrete floor
My heart cries out / Cries a name that has condemned
My destiny to hell / Please god lift this curse tonight

Reminiscence of a broken heart / Yet it all felt so surreal
For which deadly sins have I deserved to fall / Your every lie went for the kill

I just can't seem to make it out / Between my logic and sense
Is this me the best I can ever be / Your prayers will not suffice

It's a reminiscence of a broken heart / Yet it all felt so surreal
For which deadly sins have I deserved to fall / Your every lie went for the kill

Langkah

Biarkan / Jiwa ini meneriakkan / Mimpi-mimpi terkekang
Bukan tanpa makna kubicara / Rapuh jiwa meronta
Yakinkan diri / Dengan nurani
Rasa takutpun kan pergi / Hanya berani yang mengiringi

Dan waktupun tak berhenti, saat kita sadari / Semua telah terlewati
Kujalani mimpi pasti, cerita kan terkenang / Terlukis indah di masa depan

Teriak hatiku, gemakan suaramu / Kita hilangkan harapan semu
Lepaskan semua / Apa yang kaurasa / Berjalan apa adanya

Telah terbuka (Jalan tuk kita lalui) / Bagi semua (Menuju harapan pasti)

Yakinkan diri / Dengan nurani
Rasa takutpun kan pergi / Hanya berani yang mengiringi

Bukan tanpa makna kubicara / Rapuh jiwa meronta
Dan waktu pun tak berhenti / Saat rasamu tersiksa
Perlahan ragu kan terbakar / Iringi mimpi kan jadi nyata

Teriakkan hatimu / Gemakan suaramu
Dan hilangkan ragumu / Yakinkan kau mampu

31aug, wed morn

yey! nyampe deh di malang pas bangun tidur hahaha
tapi masih pagi banget dah ckckck
udah dulu yee, mau tidur lagi nih
bye~

30aug, tu nig

lagi di jalan nih ckckck
lapernyaa, kruyuk...
tidur bentar kyknya bisa deh sekalian nunggu ke rumah makan
(bangun)
berenti juga ini mobil dah, baguus
eh ternyata pas turun rumah makannya tutup, anjrit!
yaudah ke tempat lain dah, dan ternyata.... jeng jeng jeng
jelek banget gilaaaaa!! males makan dah gue, beli mi instant aja mending ck -___-
selesai makan shalat, beres shalat cabut lagi dah
akhirnya tidur lagi sambil "listening to the music" ceuhaha :D

NB: btw orang samping gue baunya kyk muntah XO

30aug, tu eve

nungguin trapel, bete gila...
akhirnya di suruh silaturahmi deh, yaowo
setelah 2jam an silaturahmi si trapel jemput deh
langsung pamitan sono sini
beres cabut brum...!
#tecamgoestomalang :D

30aug, tu noon

hoaaaahhmm...
bangun tidur deh (liat jam)
eh bujut dah udeh jam segini aje!!! -_-
langsung mandi terus makan lagi HA HA HA
beres semuanya cabut deh maen ama anak anak, ngopi dulu...
udah sore, pamit dah ke anak anak gue mau balik ke malang
langsung balik ke rumah nenek gue, beresin barang barang
selesai beres beres cengok deh depan tipi nunggu trapelnye dateng
makn dulu aaahh...
wk

30aug, tu morn

gak tidur lagi nih semalem nungguin shalat id hahaha
langsung mandi deh terus cabut ke lapangan
abis shalat langsung balik ke rumah, capek...
pas di rumah salam salaman dulu ama keluarga
terus bantai deh itu makanan macem macem
abis makan minta ampau, di kasi alhamdulillah gak di kasi ya maksa wkwkwk
untung kagak ada yang ngajakin silaturahmi, capek gila...
tidur duluuu :D